It’s been quite a while since my last blog but, to be
honest, I have not felt like my usual self just lately – I seem to have lost my
mojo!!
Over the past month or so I seem to be suffering with one
thing after another. Nothing serious,
just the usual aches and pains, pulled muscles, a bout of vertigo, a cold, infection, mouth ulcers, dizziness – but none of them seem to want to leave me completely. I’ve done loads of self-Reiki, taken
medication but still these little blighters cling to me.
So I’ve asked why? What
am I doing that prevents me enjoying good health?
What am I holding onto that I need to let go of?
My first answer came in that moment between being asleep and
awake – my very own Twilight Zone. Trust
that all is as it should be. Wooo, well, yes, that’s all very well but when you feel rubbish it’s hard to
trust.
But trust I did, and decided that rather than getting
anxious about all my aches and pains, I would just go with them and take each
day as it comes.
This afternoon I got another blinding answer. You’re holding on to past illnesses.
Mmmmm, was I? I didn’t
think so but maybe I was because when you have been through a life threatening
illness you are never the same person again.
I will freely admit that every time I felt a twinge, ache or pain I
would immediately blow it up out of all proportion and wonder if the cancer had
returned.
OK, so now I had a couple of answers, what was I going to
do? I knew I had to trust that all was
as it should be and I knew that I had to ask Archangel Michael to cut the cords
that bound me to the past.
So I did that and now I just have to wait and see what
happens. But I do feel lighter and I
also feel that I’m not alone. I am
confident that my aches and pains and all the grotty stuff will start to fade
and I will get my mojo back.
But you know, even if I never feel 100% better, everything
as is it should be and I will, somehow, deal with it.
