You Only Have to Ask

Yesterday I took a friend to hospital. Although it was a minor procedure it was still under general anaesthetic and, let's face it, however minor things are none of us like to have to go through them.

So I did the only thing I knew how to do and called upon all the help I had at my disposal.

The night before I sent Reiki to the situation. Although not becoming attached to an outcome, my intent was for surgery to go well and for my friend not to be in too much discomfort - for his highest possible good.

I sent a cosmic order that he would be first on the list for theatre and that we could leave the hospital as soon as possible - for the good of all concerned.

I asked Archangel Raphael for a safe and timely journey - thank you very much.

I asked the angels for a parking space to become available when I arrived at the hospital - thank you very much.

We left home yesterday morning and the heavens opened. The journey was not good, the water and spray on the motorway severely affected visibility and, as always, there were the halfwits driving far too fast with no lights. Nevertheless, the arrived safely and on time.

I found two parking spaces, one right outside the main entrance.

My friend was first on the list, went to theatre on time and was allowed to leave just 4-hours later.  Surgery went well.

The journey home, whilst still in the rain, went smoothly.

Last night I followed up with another session of Reiki.  Today he is fine, a little sore but not in pain.

We all have so much help available to us - all we have to do is ask.  And, of course, remember to say thank you. 

The Inner Child

We're constantly told to allow our inner child to surface every now and again.  Yesterday my inner child broke free - trouble was it was the spoilt brat!

For some reason I just couldn't settle to anything and I became frustrated to say the very least. Whatever suggestions were made, I didn't want to do it. Everyone seemed to be out doing something, but I wasn't! Everyone seemed to be having fun, but I wasn't!  I was in danger of some serious sulking - what was wrong with me?

I didn't like it one little bit, I didn't like the way I was feeling or the way I was acting.  I needed to get a grip.

I needed to find something to do, something to occupy this inner child who was being a complete pain.

So in desperation I started to read random articles on the internet - and one really caught my attention.

Delores Cannon is a hypnotherapist specialising in past life regressions.  Ooh, we had something in common so I kept reading.  But that's where it ended because Delores had been working in the field for many years and had started to notice patterns emerging in her clients.  She started to notice that not all of them had past lives on earth and eventually came up with her theory of "three waves of volunteers*".

Well this really got me thinking now because, if Delores was right in her theory, then I could well be one of the first wave of volunteers!

My inner spoilt brat suddenly disappeared and I was fully immersed in theories. So much so that my Kindle downloads were on overtime last night.

Maybe the spoilt brat was supposed to break free yesterday, to make me focus on something I would not normally have had time for.

Ah, the Universe works in mysterious ways.

* The Three Waves of Volunteers and The New Earth - Delores Cannon

Facing Fears

Eight years ago I had breast cancer, went through chemotherapy and radiotherapy and was finally discharged from the hospital in 2012. As any cancer survivor will tell you, we live with the fear of it striking again.

You can understand, therefore, how terrified I have been after I started to experience some discomfort over the past few weeks.

I tried to keep positive and harbour only positive thoughts, but this was becoming a struggle.  I often advise others to confront their fears head-on, as the fear then loses its power.  Life is a constant series of highs and lows and it's the way that we deal with the bad times that help shape us.  But my mind was just racing - why now when my life was really happy, when Gill and I had just started our beloved Como Centre and it was going so well.  Surely Spirit must have more work for me to do here.

I confided my fears in just a couple of people - their advice was unanimous; get it checked.  I asked my guides and angels for help - their advice was the same; get it checked.  But I was scared, so I left it.

Last night I had an horrendous night - no sleep at all and by this morning not only had the breast cancer returned, but had spread to my lymph nodes, lungs and possibly bones!  How pathetic am I?

This couldn't continue.

So this morning I decided I would face it head-on, whatever the outcome, and I got an appointment with the doctor.  He reassured me that he could find nothing and my discomfort was most likely due to scar tissue. However, he would see me again in 4-weeks time and if he thought there were any changes, or I was not happy, then he would refer me to the Breast Clinic.  But he was confident that all was well.

This evening I am extremely relieved and happy, but had the result been different I was ready to deal with it. I cannot live with fear, it eats you up and ruins all happiness.  It is there, constantly at the back of your mind, like a big dark cloud hanging over you; you are not free to be the person you truly are.

If you are facing a fear, face it head on, deal with it and reduce its power over you.  Free yourself to live the life you want and deserve.

Time to Listen

A month or so ago I had a private Tarot reading with my lovely friend, mentor and spiritual worker, Kitty Phillips. Among the many things she told me was the need to take time out for myself, relax more and just chill. Knowing me well, she went on to emphasis the point and said that if I didn't take the time needed, Spirit would force me into it around March-time.

Now it's not that I don't listen, or take advice seriously, but sometimes taking time out is easier said than done. I knew I had my first free weekend since Christmas coming up so figured I would just plod on. Why, oh why don't I just listen!

They hit me last night with a thumping great migraine just 30-minutes before I was due up at Como to run a meditation course. "Oh not now?" I pleaded, as I sat back and closed my eyes.

After half hour I felt slightly better, the visual disturbances had died down so off I went to my class. As the evening wore on my headache started and I wasn't sorry when the session came to an end.

The minute I walked back in the house the visual disturbances began again. What on earth was going on? This had never happened before. I sat and closed my eyes but it just wasn't shifting. I finally took some pain killers and went off to bed.

This morning I felt better, but not brilliant. The visual disturbances have gone, as has the thumping head. In it's place is a huge solid ball that thumps around in my head every time I move; I'm left feeling drained and and good for nothing.

Oh yes, I've listened now! I have spent the whole day doing nothing, just a little reading and watching some TV. I will have an early night in bed and tomorrow I will feel back to normal.

From now on I will make sure I take a little time for me, and do what I'm told to when Spirit tells me. Another lesson learned! 

Do You See What I See?

Last week I was sitting at the Como Centre waiting for some students to arrive and not doing very much at all - just being.  My focus kept going to the door.  Why?  There's nothing special about our door, it's just a door.
But then I saw them - can you?

Angel Wings.

I sat and focussed on them for a while, and just waited. The tingling started and then that lovely feeling of beautiful warm energy closing around me.  I just sat, and enjoyed that wonderful feeling, feeling loved, feeling supported.  Words cannot describe that amazing feeling of knowing that your guides and angels are drawing close.

They had no words for me, I wondered why they were there.

Then I remembered that two days later we would be running our Angels, Archangels and Ascended Masters Workshop!  Their presence was simply their way of saying "we'll be back".

It Just Keeps Getting Better

Yes, it just keeps getting better and better - our Spiritual Development Group that is.

Gill and I had spent the afternoon in our lovely Como Centre and the energy was positively charged.  We watched two rainbows, one of which was a double and so bright, and they always bring a great sense of anticipation for me. There were orbs in our room and spirit were playing with us again.  I just knew that the circle was going to be good.

I wasn't disappointed.  As soon as we sat and linked hands, a great beam of white light from floor to ceiling opened to my left.  Guides came, our wonderful Gatekeeper came and the amazing Angels came.  The white light to my left held a guide and he stayed with me throughout answering my many questions.  People started popping in and there was a really strong US Air Force connection and Charles was back from the last Circle.

We did some rescue work and helped a lady find her missing son.  I asked the Guide why we were doing rescue work when we had asked to connect with the higher guides and ascended masters who could teach us.  His reply was that everyone starts at the bottom and works up!  If we went straight to the top it would to be totally overwhelming - we had to start slowly.  He went on to assure me that we were totally protected and no-one would be allowed in who could cause us harm - he understood my thoughts.

Slowly we started to move onwards and upwards and some fabulous guides came to teach us, their message being pretty much the same - we had the knowledge and we would be given more, but we had to share it.  Learning was pointless if we didn't share.  We were also told that individual meditation was vital and shouldn't be neglected.

There was much more but finally we were taken even higher to a point where we shared an incarnation.  We were given gifts and were thanked for working with Spirit.

Personally, I continue to feel amazed and honoured to be able to work with Spirit in this way.  I will do my utmost to strengthen the connection, to have patience and to trust them completely in order that I may follow the path that is mine to achieve.

Tarot Readings

I was stark raving bonkers at the time, but in one of those wonderful moments of feeling pretty invincible I agreed to do a whole day of Tarot readings to raise funds for charity.

"What's wrong with that?" I hear you say.  Well nothing at all if you are an experienced Tarot reader - I'm not!  Oh I had a Tarot deck, and had used them regularly, but they had been in a box hidden in the loft somewhere and I hadn't looked at them since we moved here over 20-years ago.

What was I doing? What on earth made me say yes? Had I lost the plot completely?

Well I had a lot of work to do, that much was obvious.  So I talked to my own spiritual teacher and mentor thinking she would say "what on earth are you doing?" but no, she just said "fabulous, about time you got on with it".  So I ordered a new pack of Tarot cards and got to work.

My teacher, Kitty, is amazing and spent a lot of time coaching and encouraging me until I began to feel a little more confident that I could do it.  She also volunteered to come over and join us on the day but, she added, that didn't mean I could opt out and send everyone to her!

So Saturday came and four of us spent the day giving Tarot readings in The Mix, Wantage.  We had a steady flow and by the end of the day had raised just over £100 for the Bowen4Children clinic.

It was, on my part, another leap of faith.  I had asked my guides for help and they didn't let me down.  Yes, I was out of my comfort zone but, to be honest, I enjoyed every minute of it and once I got started I found it all just flowed.

Will I do it again? You bet I will but this time it will be at the Como Centre.