Grabbing Opportunities

It's been ages since my last blog but, in my own defence, I have been out of the country for a few weeks!

Last week we spent some time in Fort Lauderdale and enjoyed every minute of it. One morning I passed by the Concierge Desk at our hotel and was immediately drawn to a poster advertising a Full Moon Party, complete with Tarot Readings!  Now this piqued my interest on two levels - 1) I remember my son telling me of the wonderful Full Moon Parties he'd been to in Thailand, and 2) Tarot Readings will always draw me.

Naturally I talked to Lisa (the Concierge) and we discovered that we shared much in spiritual terms. By the end of our chat Lisa had invited me along to the party as a Tarot Reader!!!!!  Really??  Oh I had given readings before, but never on such a professional basis - could I really do this?

But every morning I thank the Universe for my abundance and affirm that I am open to any new positive opportunities that day.  This was an opportunity if ever I had one so it really would be stupid of me to ask for them only to turn them down when they appear.  Obviously my Guides thought I could do it otherwise I would not have been given the opportunity.

So I said yes.

I thanked my Guides but told them that I needed a deck of Rider Waite Tarot cards so, if they wanted me to do it, could they sort it for me please.  We set off for the local book store and made our way up to the section where they should be.  There they were - just one deck standing face forward on the top shelf - I could not have missed them if I tried!

The party was held around the pool, with the full moon glinting off the ocean - it was all very beautiful.  Around 200 people were there and I worked from 7-11pm. The more I did, the more it flowed; I loved every minute of it and met some wonderful people.

I asked for donations which I wanted to give to Breast Cancer Charity.  I made $120 that night, so I gave half to Lisa for Breast Cancer in the United States and brought $60 home for our own Como Breast Cancer Support Group.

So a huge thank you to my Guides and the Universe for giving me this opportunity and getting everything in the right place at the right time; and also for continually nudging me in the right direction to get me where I need to be.

Sharing Spirit Writings

I think it's time to start sharing some of the writings given to me by my Guides well over 30-years ago. Stupidly, I didn't date them so I have no idea what order they were given in.

At the time I shared them with members of my local Spiritualist Church, but having found them a few weeks ago buried in a box in the loft, I really think it's time to share them more widely.

The first one I'm sharing is a poem which helps with some questions I had at that time. I wrote this myself, but am clearly inspired by Spirit as I cannot write poetry. It seems just as appropriate now as it did then, maybe even more so.

Do not judge others too harshly

My Guide said to me last week
Give them your love and compassion
You know nothing of their tasks to meet

We should give them care and understanding
And try to help them through this life
Send out our prayers to all of them
That their next lesson is free from strife.

We should give them our admiration
They’ve chosen this pathway to take
And while many paths are much simpler
Their’s a much harder choice to make

Yet it's hard to give love and compassion
When a man causes a child to cry
And it’s hard to give care and understanding
When a man causes a child to die

It's impossible to give admiration
To men who commits these crimes
What pleasure do they gain from it?
I ask, so many times.

So I'm trying to be very spiritual
But I live in a material world
And while part of me does understand
I still can’t help being repelled.

So I will continue to battle
With two different parts of me
To bring my material and spiritual 
Into much greater harmony.

I'll pray for all of the children
Who suffer at somebody’s hands
That when it's their time to pass over
They will finally understand

God Bless You.

Facing Fears

Eight years ago I had breast cancer, went through chemotherapy and radiotherapy and was finally discharged from the hospital in 2012. As any cancer survivor will tell you, we live with the fear of it striking again.

You can understand, therefore, how terrified I have been after I started to experience some discomfort over the past few weeks.

I tried to keep positive and harbour only positive thoughts, but this was becoming a struggle.  I often advise others to confront their fears head-on, as the fear then loses its power.  Life is a constant series of highs and lows and it's the way that we deal with the bad times that help shape us.  But my mind was just racing - why now when my life was really happy, when Gill and I had just started our beloved Como Centre and it was going so well.  Surely Spirit must have more work for me to do here.

I confided my fears in just a couple of people - their advice was unanimous; get it checked.  I asked my guides and angels for help - their advice was the same; get it checked.  But I was scared, so I left it.

Last night I had an horrendous night - no sleep at all and by this morning not only had the breast cancer returned, but had spread to my lymph nodes, lungs and possibly bones!  How pathetic am I?

This couldn't continue.

So this morning I decided I would face it head-on, whatever the outcome, and I got an appointment with the doctor.  He reassured me that he could find nothing and my discomfort was most likely due to scar tissue. However, he would see me again in 4-weeks time and if he thought there were any changes, or I was not happy, then he would refer me to the Breast Clinic.  But he was confident that all was well.

This evening I am extremely relieved and happy, but had the result been different I was ready to deal with it. I cannot live with fear, it eats you up and ruins all happiness.  It is there, constantly at the back of your mind, like a big dark cloud hanging over you; you are not free to be the person you truly are.

If you are facing a fear, face it head on, deal with it and reduce its power over you.  Free yourself to live the life you want and deserve.

Tarot Readings

I was stark raving bonkers at the time, but in one of those wonderful moments of feeling pretty invincible I agreed to do a whole day of Tarot readings to raise funds for charity.

"What's wrong with that?" I hear you say.  Well nothing at all if you are an experienced Tarot reader - I'm not!  Oh I had a Tarot deck, and had used them regularly, but they had been in a box hidden in the loft somewhere and I hadn't looked at them since we moved here over 20-years ago.

What was I doing? What on earth made me say yes? Had I lost the plot completely?

Well I had a lot of work to do, that much was obvious.  So I talked to my own spiritual teacher and mentor thinking she would say "what on earth are you doing?" but no, she just said "fabulous, about time you got on with it".  So I ordered a new pack of Tarot cards and got to work.

My teacher, Kitty, is amazing and spent a lot of time coaching and encouraging me until I began to feel a little more confident that I could do it.  She also volunteered to come over and join us on the day but, she added, that didn't mean I could opt out and send everyone to her!

So Saturday came and four of us spent the day giving Tarot readings in The Mix, Wantage.  We had a steady flow and by the end of the day had raised just over £100 for the Bowen4Children clinic.

It was, on my part, another leap of faith.  I had asked my guides for help and they didn't let me down.  Yes, I was out of my comfort zone but, to be honest, I enjoyed every minute of it and once I got started I found it all just flowed.

Will I do it again? You bet I will but this time it will be at the Como Centre.

Synchronicity?

Last week we held our second Spiritual Development Group and while I won't bore you with all the details, I do want to share this with you.

I felt a man drawing close to me, he was in uniform and had a cap on his head. The jacket was blue and had a belt round the middle.  An American Air Force uniform.  He was young, but not in years; rather in time spent working in spirit.  A nice man, kindly and with a bit of a twinkle.  He had been sent to work with us; we would grow together.

I had the sense that we were being observed; someone was making sure that we worked together and all was well.  I saw us (our Circle) as fledgling birds, flapping tiny little wings and preparing to fly.  Then I was shown an eagle, soaring in the clear blue sky.  I knew we would eventually be like the eagle, but we had a lot of work to do first - we couldn't run before we could walk.

I was also being told that we had to trust and let ourselves go completely; we would be guided on that over the coming months.

Another in our circle also connected with the American and had quite a chat with him.  He was a major in the US Air Force, his name was Charles and he came from Chicago.  He passed as an older man back home.  He was indeed here to help us; he would also learn from us as he was new to this kind of work.

After we closed the circle and sat chatting, it suddenly dawned on us that our Centre is on the site of the old Second World War US Military Base!

Was Charles based here?  Is it easier to connect with him because we are located on the same site?  Were we guided to our lovely Centre because it is on the Base?  So many questions for Charles at our next meeting.

Is this a case of classic synchronicity I wonder?

The Drawing

Following on from my last blog, and S's guide, I just thought I would share with you what happened next.

The morning after I met the guide I awoke really early with a strong feeling that I had to draw him.

Surely not, I thought, I can’t draw.  But no, I was being urged to get on with it.  So much so that I was reminded of an artist set that had been a gift but left in a drawer, unused, for years.

I got up early and rummaged in the drawer – a set of pencils plus an instruction book on how to sketch and draw.  Hummmm, did I really want to do this?  Well no, but I was being nagged so went along with it and even went into town and bought an Artists’ Sketchbook.

That afternoon I sat and drew.  It’s no masterpiece that’s for sure, but I did what I was told and here he is.

I don't know what this will lead to - my guides are probably having a good old laugh and thinking "well, we won't get her to do that again!".  

A Reiki Share & A Guide

Last week at our regular Reiki Share I was quite stunned to find myself meeting a guide of a member of our group.

I had been feeling that someone was around us all evening and, with my eyes closed, had seen shadows pass before me when no one in the room had moved.  As “S” settled herself down to receive Reiki, this person came closer to me.  Somehow I just knew he was a guide and he was here for “S”.

I should add here that I don’t “see” or “hear” in the normal sense of the words.  What I have is like a memory although I have no knowledge of what I’m remembering.  Does that make sense?  It’s very hard to describe the way that I connect with spirit.  It is very subtle and therefore I always tend to doubt what I’m getting; I think it’s just my imagination.

So here I was giving Reiki and picking up on these feelings.  I sensed it was a man and quite small in size.  He had a long grey beard that tapered to a point at waist level.  He was in a black robe with his arms crossed in front of him and hands disappearing into his sleeves.  He had a small black hat on his head.  He was Chinese.

He told me, without my hearing him, that he was here for “S” to help her through a situation she was facing at the moment.  He asked me to tell her that.  Now at this point I’m thinking “this is my imagination” but then the thought popped in my head again – “you will tell her, won’t you?” I answered with the thought “Yes, I will” and then “Thank you Missy” came back to me.

I was a little blown away with that because I reasoned that I could well have imagined most of what went on, but no way would I have imagined “thank you Missy” - would I?  

I told “S” when we had finished the Reiki and she was aware that she had a Chinese guide and the fact that he was here to help her with a current situation made perfect sense to her.

When, oh when, will I start to totally trust what I’m getting and not keep thinking it’s all in my head!!