Another of Those Dreams

Last night I had another of those vivid dreams that not only stay with you for a while but also make you look deeper into their meaning.

In the dream I was travelling to a training course in a mini-bus.  The bus turned into the car park of a club in our town, but the car park turned into the driveway of a place where I used to work.  I told the driver to keep to the right-hand side of the drive as we needed to go to the canteen.  The canteen was at yet another work location and had turned into a nightclub with a tropical theme.  Some of the people I used to work with were there and I found myself talking to an actor in one of our TV soaps.  I commented about the new building work and he offered to show me around.  As we walked down the driveway we came into a small town in Poland.  The actor pointed out some of the buildings and took me into a home where the lady sold hand-knitted baby clothes.  As I left the house I bumped into a lady who dropped an envelope containing money.  The envelope floated down the gutter and she got quite cross with me, saying that I could have retrieved it for her.  I ran after the envelope but it was picked up by a very old woman running a market stall.  I tried to explain, using hand gestures, that I knew who it belonged to and she agreed that I could take it.  As I picked it up it was much bigger and contained much more money than when the lady dropped it.  I returned the envelope and as she was about to say thank you I woke up.

So, all really weird as only dreams can be.  But my interpretation is this.

The fact that I was going on a training course equates with the holistic training programme that we are incorporating into Como.  Not sure why I went to two of my previous work places or why an actor turned up.  I think the building work represents all the work we are putting into building our business, plus the fact that we are just about to move into our own premises.  The old Polish town and the knitting leave me stumped but I think that the lady dropping the envelope of money represents the slight concerns I had that we could lose money by renting these premises.  Now, I am hoping that by finding and retrieving the money, and the fact that it had increased considerably, indicates that our new venture will be ok.

Wonder if I’ve got that all right?

The Beauty Within

I saw this tree on a recent visit to a local arboretum.  It was the first tree I saw on the way in, and its impact has remained with me. 

I find it beautiful and I could gaze at it for hours.  It didn’t have the beautiful coloured leaves that the other trees had and I’m not sure it ever did.  But, to me, this tree is every inch as beautiful.

It reminds me that you don’t have to be either young or physically attractive to capture attention.  This tree looks very old, it has no outwardly attractive features, yet to me it speaks volumes.  It has lived and endured, it has seen much in its lifetime and bears the scars.  It has lost its youthful beauty but it has gained so much character.  It is solid, strong, dependable and has stood the test of time.  It's inner beauty and strength really struck a chord with me.

Whilst everyone else took photographs of the splendour and beauty of the other trees, I remained with this one.  I guess the saying is true – beauty is in the eye of the beholder. 

Can you identify with this tree?  I know I certainly can.

Self-Doubt

Today was the final day of my Meditation Teachers Course.  It’s been a fantastic course and I have enjoyed every minute of it.  My fellow students have been a joy to be with.

But today I had a big attack of self-doubt.

We all had to lead a meditation and everyone was so good.  Some had written their own which were so personal and beautiful.  All of the deliveries were perfect and I enjoyed every one.

Then it was my turn.  And there I was, thinking about all the things I forgot to include, all the things I had included and maybe shouldn’t have.  Was I delivering it too fast – was it too slow and boring?  Would they all hate it?  But I did it and then it was over, I had taken them on a journey and brought them back again.  Time for my feedback!

It really wasn’t too bad – yes, of course, there were things I could have done better but why did I think I had to be perfect?  I was learning, no-one expected perfection.  My meditation teaching would be one big learning curve, as was everything in life.  The more I did the better I would become, so why was I beating myself up today?  I guess we all have doubts from time to time, I just have to learn to deal with them!

It never ceases to amaze me how our guides work with us, bringing us exactly what we need at the appropriate moment.   Three things happened this morning that I felt were personal for me – i) before we started our day our tutor led us in a meditation using Diane Cooper’s Wisdom Cards.  The card I drew was “Acceptance” and the affirmation was “I will accept myself and others”; ii) our first student-led meditation was all about increasing self-confidence and self-belief; and iii) the rest of the group didn’t understand what my problem was as they felt my meditation was as good as the others and they enjoyed the experience.  It seemed I was the only one who doubted it.

So, bit of a kick up the bum for me!

Hurricane Sandy

I have spent a lot of time over the past few days thinking about the people on the East Coast of America, sending my love, positive thoughts and, of course, Reiki. 

I’m starting to question why so many people have to suffer, many have lost belongings, their homes and even their lives.  My heart goes out to these people and I want to do something to help.  Yes, I send my positive thoughts and Reiki, but somehow it doesn’t seem enough.  I go to my warm and comfortable bed at night whilst others are spending their nights in shelters and grieving for who and what they have lost.

I know material things are not important in the grand scheme of things, but that’s easy for me to say when I haven’t lost mine.  I would like to think that I would be strong and really be there for others, but I guess none of us really know until we’re put to the test.

I catch fleeting glimpses of the bigger picture, which I know to be true.  We are moving towards ascension and stuff is being shifted.  We have got to change, we cannot continue to treat each other and Mother Earth in the way we have been and we all have to play our part.  I get all that, but it doesn’t make it easier to live through.

So what can I do for people who have to cope with all that life, and nature, throws at them?  Well, probably nothing first hand but I can continue to help all who I come into contact with.  I can help to lift the vibrations of others and spread love wherever I go.  If we all do that, then maybe we will love and protect our planet more and will certainly love and help our fellow man whenever and wherever needed.

God Bless xx

A Meditation Experience

One of the first things I did when I started to meditate seriously was to find my sanctuary.  I found it easy to do and this is now the place I go to daily when I meditate alone.  I feel safe, secure and loved in my special place.

My sanctuary started as a fairly small space – I had a room, a veranda and a shady nook by a river.  I had almost tunnel vision and couldn’t see anything other than what was in front of me.  Over the months my vision is slowly beginning to widen and new aspects of my surroundings are beginning to appear.

I have met with guides and have been taught much.  I never stay too long but while I’m there time seems irrelevant.

Yesterday I went and sat on the veranda but really didn’t see much of my surroundings.  I saw lots of green and I was surrounded by a green mist.  I could breathe it in and out – it filled and surrounded me.  Then, amazingly, I had the sense of floating upwards.  I floated up to my nearby tree and rested there for a while.  I looked down and saw that I was still sitting on the veranda.  I took off from the tree, a bit like a bird flying only I wasn’t a bird.  I was almost formless yet I could change shape.  Although I was moving, sometimes fairly quickly, I was limited to where I could go.  I was confined to my space.  I was conscious of nothing but this floating and flying, this wonderful freedom to move where and how I liked.  After a while I just floated down and became me again.  It wasn’t a conscious thought, I never felt my time was up, it just happened. 

All very weird and I have no idea what it was or what it meant - but I loved it.

Spiritual Development Group #3

For those of you who are following my development within my own group, here's the last one in a nutshell.

This month we placed a ring of flames around the circle for protection.  Didn’t sense our Gladiator, which was a little disappointing but we all felt the rope being passed to us.  Immediately a child was felt clasping a leg but was asked to sit quietly and wait until we finished. 

No camp fire this time but immediately found ourselves by a lake.  It was dark and very cold, the lake was still and clear with the moon reflecting on it.  Some time passed and a man appeared and started walking towards us.  He stopped before he reached us and pulled a scroll from his sleeve and opened it.  We couldn’t hear his words.  He showed us five stones on the ground, not stepping stones but more like small mountains.

In the distance was a cave with a light shining from the opening and we knew that we had to make our way there.  The path was rocky and it was not going to be an easy journey.  It started to snow and vision was limited.  We moved forward together and when one stumbled we were all there for support.

We made it to the cave.  Inside was warm and bright and a table was laden with food.  Beautiful food, lots of fruit and vegetables and the colours were bright – the food looked like jewels.

Our guide appeared and we have now started to refer to him as Papa.  We all smiled and he smiled back at us.  He said we were indeed sisters and that we would stay together.  He sometimes saw the world through our eyes and he didn’t like what he saw.  He came to each of us in turn and gave us a blessing.  He told us that we would each be facing a challenge; it would be a life/work challenge but we wouldn’t be given anything that we couldn't cope with.  The challenge would test our faith and commitment; we wouldn’t realise we were dealing with our challenge until it was over.  We would also be given another challenge that we would face together.  He then came to each of us in turn and pressed his thumbs into the palms of our hands.

He left us then and our attention was back on the child.  We helped him go towards the light and we all sent our love with him.  He was met by his people and as he left us we felt the atmosphere lighten. 

We were back and it was time to close down and give thanks.

We were all delighted to see Papa but this time he had taken his time in coming to us, he was making us wait and this was testing our patience.  He won’t always be with us but will be close by.  The five stones that were presented to us were our five challenges and the path to the cave was showing us that our journey will not always be easy or smooth.

It seems that every time we sit together, someone appears who needs our help to move onwards.  It is lovely to be able to help others as well as learning.

The Sky at Night

Just wanted to share this photo.  I took it last night from my back garden in South Oxfordshire, around 6pm (GMT).  No fancy camera, just my phone.  The colours were stunning and the energy was amazing.  It was over pretty quickly but I think it really highlights the beauty that surrounds us when we take the time to look.