As It Should Be

It’s been quite a while since my last blog but, to be honest, I have not felt like my usual self just lately – I seem to have lost my mojo!!

Over the past month or so I seem to be suffering with one thing after another.  Nothing serious, just the usual aches and pains, pulled muscles, a bout of vertigo, a cold, infection, mouth ulcers, dizziness – but none of them seem to want to leave me completely.  I’ve done loads of self-Reiki, taken medication but still these little blighters cling to me.

So I’ve asked why?  What am I doing that prevents me enjoying good health?  What am I holding onto that I need to let go of?

My first answer came in that moment between being asleep and awake – my very own Twilight Zone.  Trust that all is as it should be.  Wooo, well, yes, that’s all very well but when you feel rubbish it’s hard to trust.

But trust I did, and decided that rather than getting anxious about all my aches and pains, I would just go with them and take each day as it comes. 

This afternoon I got another blinding answer.  You’re holding on to past illnesses.  

Mmmmm, was I?  I didn’t think so but maybe I was because when you have been through a life threatening illness you are never the same person again.  I will freely admit that every time I felt a twinge, ache or pain I would immediately blow it up out of all proportion and wonder if the cancer had returned.

OK, so now I had a couple of answers, what was I going to do?  I knew I had to trust that all was as it should be and I knew that I had to ask Archangel Michael to cut the cords that bound me to the past.

So I did that and now I just have to wait and see what happens.  But I do feel lighter and I also feel that I’m not alone.  I am confident that my aches and pains and all the grotty stuff will start to fade and I will get my mojo back.

But you know, even if I never feel 100% better, everything as is it should be and I will, somehow, deal with it. 

The Universe Will Sort it Out

I have a very close friend who suffers from a disease that, although not life-threatening, has severely affected her lifestyle.  She is a member of the local branch of the charity which helps support people with the condition.

About a month ago she asked if we would like to join them at the charity’s Christmas Lunch in mid-December.  As we’d never been before, we felt it would be nice to help support both the charity and our friend, but in doing so I would not be able to go the Bowen4Children’s Christmas party as the two events clashed. 

I really didn’t know what to do, I wanted to be at both events as they were each extremely important to me.  I was not happy about letting the Children’s Clinic down, but neither was I happy about letting my friend down and, for some reason, I could not bring myself to tell either one that I had to cancel.  So I asked the Universe for help.

I asked the Universe to sort it all out, for the good of all concerned, and I just sat back and waited.  Here’s what happened next:

Last Friday the hotel that was hosting the charity lunch went into liquidation and was closed.  The lunch was off and it looked like they would lose their £1,000 deposit.  Noooooo, this is not what I wanted. 

On Saturday it looked like they would get their deposit back, although it would take a few weeks or months to get the refund.  Ok, so they would get their money back but there were still a lot of disappointed people who would not get their Christmas lunch.

On Sunday another venue stepped in and offered to host the event.  Yesssssss, this was getting better.  However, there was just one little thing – they couldn’t accommodate the group on the original date but could do the following day.

Yes, yes, yes – how perfect was that?  The lunch is back on, no money has been lost, lots of fabulous publicity for the charity, and I can go to both events.

Universe – I love you!

Judgements

Just for today I will not anger

Just for today I will not worry

Just for today I will be honest and grateful

Just for today I will respect others and not judge

Just for today I will be kind to all living things

As a Reiki Master I try to live by the above five Reiki Precepts set by Dr Mikao Usui.  Although these are very simple, believe me they’re not as easy as they seem.  

I should point out here that there are many interpretations of these precepts and each Reiki Master will teach as they have been taught.  These are the precepts that I choose to follow.

I try very hard with these and, on the whole, succeed reasonably well with four of them.  The fifth is a real test.

Just for today I will respect others and not judge – yup, that’s the little devil that gets me.  I try very hard and every morning, as I recite my precepts, I fully intend to follow them for the day.  Until, that is, somebody’s actions really start to aggravate me and then I’m off.

But who am I to judge?  Why can't I just accept people for who they are, even though I don't necessarily agree with them.  Most of the time I don’t even really know the people I am criticising, don’t know what their life is like or what they have to face therefore I have no idea of the reasons behind why they do the things they do.

I have no right to judge, especially when I hate being judged and criticised myself.  So, just for today ...

Never Too Old

Over the past month or so I have had the privilege of teaching two senior citizens – one Reiki and the other Meditation.

Both of these delightful men both surprised and delighted me.  At 75 and 92-years of age they both do martial arts, practise Tai Chi, are totally aware of energy and the power of the mind.  Both have led interesting lives, have a wealth of knowledge and have much to teach others.

Student A wanted to learn Reiki so he could help his students at martial arts practise.  Student B wanted to learn meditation for his own peace of mind and to utilise the energy more fully.

We had such wonderful and interesting sessions and I feel honoured that they chose me to teach them.

So please don’t think you are too old start something new or have new experiences.  My two lovely gentlemen are proof that you are never too old to learn.

The Poodle and the Pony

Ollie the poodle had his final Reiki session last Friday and both Gill and I were really pleased that he is now a much happier dog.  Ollie greeted us like old friends, no barking or growling, just very pleased to see us.  He settled immediately, dropped off to sleep and soaked up the Reiki.

His owner is delighted with the results, so much so that she has booked onto the next Reiki Level I training course so that she can treat him herself.  I would call that a result, wouldn’t you?

We then went on to see the pony and what a delightful little chap he turned out to be.  We asked that he be left in his paddock to not cause him any distress and to allow him to choose whether to accept Reiki or not. His problem seemed to be one of total distrust of people, including his owner.

He was standing in the middle of the paddock as we approached.  He wasn’t sure whether he wanted anything to do with us and just stood watching with a wary eye.  Reiki flowed and slowly he took a few paces towards us.  It was slow progress but eventually he walked over and just stood looking; he sensed the energy and accepted.  We made no move to touch him, just allowed him to be.  He took Reiki for about 20-minutes and then just wandered off.  He’d had enough!

Will we go back?  I do hope so.  

Choices

Yesterday I wasn’t well at all; I seemed to have picked up some virus that made me dizzy and sick so I had no choice but to stay in bed.

Unable to do anything but sleep and think, I had plenty of time to do some self-Reiki and meditation; both of which were extremely helpful.

During these sessions I found the past kept cropping up a lot – some of it great and some not so great. 

It was during one of the not-so-great sessions that I got some real clarity. 

During our lives we all have to make decisions.  Years ago I made a decision and, whilst I still believe it was the right one for me, I have carried the guilt of it for years.  By making that decision I hurt others; I have felt totally selfish and guilty over taking the route to my own happiness.

But yesterday I finally realised that the decision I made was the right one for me; for once I had followed my heart and not my head which is something we all should strive for.  Yes, I had made others unhappy but they then had the choice to seek their own solutions.  I don’t think I can remain feeling guilty any more if they choose to remain in the past.

So today I feel as though I have shifted something that I have held onto for years.  The past is the past and I cannot alter that and I am truly sorry that I have hurt people; but I have to move forward.

So maybe I needed to be forced to take to my bed yesterday so that I could gain this insight and shed the issues I’ve been holding onto. 

I thank my guides for making it happen – but can I please not have the dizziness anymore!

Update on the Poodle

Last week Gill and I went back to check on Ollie, the black poodle who we gave Reiki to.  Completely unsure of what to expect, we rang the bell and waited.

Ollie greeted us full of excitement and wagging tail, a few barks but nothing like the growling of the week before.  His owner told us that he was much improved, less anxious and enjoying his walks much more.  She said he still had an issue with one particular area on his walk but I suspect that this is more to do with the fact that she gives him a biscuit to get him to carry on walking!

We gave Ollie more Reiki.  He settled really quickly, allowed us to put our hands on him and dropped off to sleep.  Great result.

The added bonus is that Ollie’s owner feels that she too has improved as a result of being with Ollie during his Reiki session.  So much so that she had invited a friend around to share it too!

We’re going back in a couple of weeks to give Ollie his third and final session; neither of us feel that Ollie needs further treatments. 

And anyway, Ollie’s owner asked if we could just pop round to visit a friend who has an anxious pony!!